Bitter Sweet

I have been so grateful to have been able to babysit these 3 munchkins. I love them so much! We had so much fun together! When preschool was over and we moved into Sherry's home it just got too crowded. We had 11 kids under 9 years old. They all loved it but it was just a little too wild around here. My last day of daycare was May 25th. It was such a bitter sweet day. I miss this family tons! I miss having them here but am so grateful to now be a full time Mommy! This is the first time since I was 17 that I have not been working. I've always been blessed to be able to do just small part time jobs mostly from home. I don't know what to do with myself now though. I am so used to being so crazy busy. Now it feels like all I do is sleep, laundry, feed the kids, and sit. And sit some more. The first few days were really weird. I didn't know how to sit still. Now I'm probably soakin' it up a little too much. My internal clock that keeps me going has slowed waaaaaay down. I am so happy though. So happy to spend more time with my sweet kids. And so happy to be able to spend more time with my sweet hubby. And so happy to be able to have the time to help others and serve more when it's needed. It feels good to slow down and steady the course. To simplify. To be able to focus on the essentials as we go through tough struggles. To have the time to listen. To be able to take the time to refocus my life and do the things necessary to purify my heart. To pay attention to the divine things that matter most. I have been able to feel more peace and joy. I have felt the beauty of a simple and humble path. Retiring from preschool and daycare was extremely difficult, but I am so grateful and so happy to be the kind of Mom my kids always wanted and needed.